it happens again.... :(

A day after my 25th birthday, that unexplainable feelings come again..i just cant figure it out, cant explain the reasons for feeling so..it just suddenly came and in worst condition it could burst my tears for hours.. :(
could be said, it is a mixed-up of problems..the unsolved problems and drag till today...
job, life, family...hmm...nobody could share, nobody to understand well, nobody have the solution..
I have tried to ignore..but as people said, we cannot run from problems.i'm not running.i'm facing it.but i just cant bear this for too long..why do i have to understand other's feeling but they didnt even care of mine..??
anyone knows what to do???i'm tired of all this..i've been going through these for years..and not for another years to come..please....
there's somenone thought me before not to care for what those 'unimportant people' did to me..i did try..sometime it works, sometime it totally does not works.i kept thinking the reason why..and in the end it might pressure myself, my feeling, my thought and my life. i wish i could always be with that person but she's married..plus,i cant depends on others right...hmm...
anyhow, thanks to someone who willingly care to share last nite..but i just knew you..there's nothing much i could say..yet, not many people whom i could talk to comfortably..
my another hope for this year's B'day is to overcome all these with smile :)

25th Birthday!!

Its my birthday!!!!again...for the 25th times. :)

Started today's life with a good mood. hopefully everything will be

fine towards the end of the day.( even got a birthday wish from my Boss just now.hehe )

thanks to those who remember my birthday by sending your wishes starting

12am 16th november 2009. what a surprise 'someone' i've been closed for the past few years did remember my B'day and call me up. but my phone battery runs out. we are not fated to talk maybe..hu..

anyway, that was so sweet and soo kind of you to still slot this date among your busy days..

previously i did sort of worry that this year's B'day going to be a bored one..

but no it is not! yesterday i met up with an old friend during my university life. we havent met for almost 3 years since she graduate..the most important part is we are still like before.we could still talk, kidding, and share our story as before.she makes me realize that i still have a friend to talk to..thanks to you :)

but still dont have someone closer to the heart..they have went away dont know for what reason..i wont say i'm not good enough for them coz they are not good enough to me either.haha.i believe in God's planning. He knows what best for me. I just need to improve myself to the best level possible and leave the rest to God.

Should be enough for this time..here are my wishes for this year's B'day :

""I wish for a happy and prosperous life. Hope that i will be hired for a job which is better than now with better pay, benefits and the most important: i could enjoy work and life at the same time. Hope that i will meet someone i dream of or at least could open my heart accepting someone.having further commitment in life maybe. always be in a positive mind and good mood. having more close friends and many happy returns in life.. :)""

birthday...

few days more going to be my birthday anniversary...add a year..
tp macam bosan je rasa...huh....
ever since i graduated, life become almost pathetic.seems like there's no more fun, constant happiness
anymore as before..hardly feel to be exact.
kenapa...??entah..!!!
kadang2 rasa macam bese je birthday..even though my family did remember (thank God), tp tetap kadang2 mcm ade yg xkna...apa..???entah..!!!
this year's b'day, ape plak la cite..going to be the same as past 2 3 years..
ok je..cume tu la kadang2 bosan..
but, what am i looking for pun kan..huhu.
let it be in its own way la....let things happen naturally...

cubaan pertama..

x pernah tfikir pun nk terlibat dgn blog2 ni..tp , knp x kn?xsalah pun cuba.at least ade tempat gak utk aku bercerita tnpa perlu pduli org nk dgr ke x.hehe.
memandangkan ni baru percubaan pertama, tanpa tau cara atau 'law' dlm dunia blog ni, xdapat la nk ckp banyak as introduction..bahasa..bercampur2.kalau pada org yg kisah mesti bengang je baca.menyampah kot..haha.
ni la jdnya bila nk cuba improve english tp masih suka bahasa sendiri :)
xsalah pun kan...
dan untuk permulaan ni, xade ape nk tulis lagi (walaupun banyak sebenarnya terpendam). mungkin aku boleh start dgn isu yg mendatang. yg da lepas, biarlah...seboleh mungkin. abaikan...
ok la..sambung kemudian..banyak kerja lagi nih..