kahwin..

        Semalam our Management bagi balik awal..Since dah dapt chance tu, sempat la pergi jumpa member (lelaki) yang dah bertahun2 tak jumpa, tapi tak lost contact..through phone..berdebar-debar tu memang tak la..excited, hmm..sebab dah lama tak jumpa, ye kot..lepas tu, pergi tengok movie..Percy Jackson.Nice movie after all. Good shots and interesting storyline. Thrill and fun. but this is not about the movie..
        Sebenarnya tak nak pun jumpa dia ni..sebab takut akan tersuka pula kat dia..padahal, memang tak nak pun kat dia..adala sebab-sebab nya..and i don't think he likes me as well..even though kadang-kadang tu dia selalu cerita ke arah more than just friend, we treat that as a joke..tapi, dia ni ada lain cara sikit..have a little bit similarity in way of thinking as me. in fact, dari mula kawan pun memang kitorang tak pernah ada heart feeling..because dia ni someone yang nice to talk to..open and trustable (so far). memang ni first time jumpa kawan lelaki yang memang boleh dibuat kawan semata-mata..tapi masalahnya, bila i am comfortable with someone, i'm used to hoping he's there all the time..macam special boyfriend lar..but he's not a bf..so i can't expect him to be around all the time..then, bila dia takde, i started to feel bukan-bukan..entah..hard to explain...that's why, seboleh mungkin tak nak jumpa dia..tapi fikir-fikir balik, why not kan..
        Masa diner dia start tanya kenapa tak nak kahwin lagi?as usual, my answer, belum ada hati nak kawin..therefore, belum ada hati nak serius dengan sesiapa..again, as usual, kena la balik ayat yang satu ni: jual mahal + memilih. salah ke memilih??nak kahwin bukan seminggu dua..and for those who really understand what marriage is and all the responsibilities, mesti faham tahap keseriusan untuk decide to get married..so do i. tapi kenapa orang asyik buat conclusion macam tu on me??i was once not being choosy when i first time have a bf..but, what happen to the end?that makes me even choosier.. Thank God that i still have the guts not to bother this matters. as my mom also said, she dont mind..that's a green light la..haha..but the rest???why so bother?? there are lots of other things to be done and haven't been done lar dear...                          

Berdoalah semoga dibukakan pintu hatiku...Amin..

Dugaan...

        Pernah di awal tahun 2010, aku berazam untuk tidak lagi mempersoalkan tentang kerja sekarang..menerima apa adanya..tapi kenapa hari ini, aku mula berkira-kira balik..mula perasaan bosan tu..nak tukar kerja, belum dapat offer yang better than what i have or at least almost the same..nak suruh bertahan kat sini, macam satu tekanan gak..the only thing i could do, tak ambil port..tapi sampai bila..kadang-kadang kebengangan tu menular semakin dalam..belum lagi kira kebosanan..
        Apa dan kerja macam mana sebenarnya aku nak...???mungkin, fixed working hours, 5 days a week, seldomly outstation, tolerable distance and traffic, most important is : lots of time to spend with family.. some might says i am spoil.can't even live on my own. but that's not true..i could live on my own. i've been once. mungkin masa tu tengah study, senang..tapi rasanya sama je..still have to manage life on my own..handle probs and stress on my own..mostly on my own la...cuma sejak dah habis belajar dan duduk dengan family 24/7 ni, rasanya macam berat je nak duduk asing lagi..the main reason is, i'm thinking of my parents..nanti cuma tinggal mereka berdua kat rumah..my younger brother bukan selalu ada pun kat rumah..then, my mom will sicking-worry about me staying alone, outside...kesian pula macam tu..i, definitely la will be ok staying alone..tipu la kalau ada orang yang tak haappy dapat life macam tu..it will be like, me,back on track.on my used-to-lifestyle..tapi...i chose not to live such life again..the reason, kept to myself only =)
        Masalah sekarang, nak kerja apa ni..most of those good jobs, widely advertised, they are in KL..betul ke cuma kerja kat KL je yang best dan akan beri pengalaman kerja terbaik?i'm working in shah alam area now..pengalaman kerja kat sini pun cukup baik. plus, i'm working in different field with my degree course. tapi kenapa orang-orang keep on saying, kerja la kat KL..as for me, i know myself better than others. i know what i should go for and avoid. for the reasons on all, so sar, i haven't met someone who could understand..

Best way is then, uphold all right values and put family ahead. U'll be rewarded later. Insya-Allah.. =)

Extra money or BONUS!!

         Selalu dengar bila setiap kali dapat bonus or ada duit lebih sikit, mesti orang akan start cerita : bonus beli ape..pergi mane, tak spend ke..ya..itu normal..tapi bila expenses tu macam tak pernah dapat duit, hmm..patut ke tak tu?? for those with high income, shoudn't be a problem..but what about those with just enough income??kadang2 pelek tengok or dengar bila orang2 dalam kategori ni can simply spend on whatever they want ( excluding basic needs)..lepas tu, akan terduduk terdiam sebab dalam akaun bank left only ngam2 for that month..i do believe that we should spend the money buying things which we favor..as a gift after our hardwork earning the money..tapi tengok orang simply spending too much of their money( which in fact i know: it's their money, their problem) on unneccessary things (branded item esp.), jadi pelek dan hairan kejap...aren't they thinking of their future financial needs??ke, aku yang kedekut sangat????!!!but, i don't think so..i do sometime spend my money on unneccessary things (considered so as my mom always nag at me..hehe)..not as much as them however.. =) but i would rather spend it in an investment mode..
        Ada jugak member2 yang selalu mengeluh, pening2 duit tak cukup..bila tengah bulan sesak nak mati..depends on cases, i do have pity on them and would willingly help if they are really desperate..tapi, bila fikir kan kalau dorang ni jenis spend sesuke hati, maleh nak nolong..huhu..duit tu memang tak kan pernah cukup kalau tak pernah syukur or tak pernah beringat..i really uphold that. tapi jangan pulak tersangat beringat. menyampah pulak orang kat kita..dan bagi yang ada family, kesian pulak kat family kalau da terlalu beringat..ingat jugak, duit tak boleh bawa mati..ingat untuk tinggal bagi mudah urusan mati kita, tu takpe =)

'Buang' la duit pada perkara yang membawa faedah terutama untuk masa depan.. Simpan la semua duit tu kalau rasa tak kan mati..(pada yang kedekut ;p ).. Spend Wisely!